Motherhood, oh the joy!

This past monday, the 23rd of April, my baby girl, turned 11 years old.
      And she had to sit through another tale of how she came to be and her
very abrupt entrance into this place, we call earth.
      Well, at the age of 33, I never would have foreseen becoming a mother at 22 years of age.
Even so, I must say, its been a new roller coaster ride, in regards, to learning to become a mother,
and dealing with a live baby, verses a doll, that one could throw around and stomp on if needed.
The fact that I was more of a tomboy verses a girly girl, growing up, I did adore babies, yet I never fathomed of becoming a mother, at any time in my life.
      Not that I did not think of it, but due to a very unique start in my own life, I never thought I would make it into adulthood.  Yet, here I am, and there she is, standing in awe, of such a beautfil, lovely, young lady, my baby is coming out to be.
     If you were to ask why I live, I would say to you, I am alive, because I chose to live in order to fight and protect her, from all the evil, that is unfolding within this place, called, Earth.
I have another blog, in which I recount the most horrid memories of my childhood, and of facing tribulations and trials, and learning to face the truth.  I also recount how my daughter came to be, and in the end, its not the beginning any mother would wish for her child, or children, yet in my case, it was not a happy one, but I endured what I had to endure in order to have her safe and sound in my arms.
     Throughout the years, I have grown up in many ways, and along with her, I have learned, that at each stage in life, a mother, needs to change her role in order to confront the constant changes going on within her child's own life.
      But the one thing, I have learned throughout all this, is to Love.  The moment you lay eyes on your newborn, this surge, of mixed emotions and feelings arise, which connect you, to that tiny, bundle, in such a way, that almost immediately, you want to protect that life, and not let any bad thing happen to your baby.
     The Love that comes from a mother's heart is probably one of the purest forms of Love, that can still be found upon this earth.  No matter how your baby comes out, of your womb, you have already cared for it, prepared for it, and you are willing to stand up against those that might say or think otherwise.
    These past 11 yrs, have not been easy, yet, ever since my child and I were reunited, last year, after being separated for 3 whole years, we have both bonded together, with arguments and fights along the way, yet the Love that I felt before even seeing her, has grown stronger each day, each second of my life, I am willing to be with her, as she continues to become independent, and strong and learns the way of life, right from wrong, ect..
   I admit, at times I wish to hide her from the boys and men, that are already noticing her in many ways, yet at the same time, I know that I will never be able to fully protect her 24/7 and hence I rely on God to protect her at all times, whenever I cannot be around her.
    As many times as we cry, there will always be tears of joy in midst of pain and tribulation.  I hope to live long enough to make sure my daughter marries a good man, one who will cherish her and love her as I have and more.
                    Angel 4 Eternity